(----- is laid in the tomb)

The sun also rises...
in Hell.
But now never again, kill the lights, fucking break the skin--gave it all I had, I have nothing left to give,
and if you love life there’s some ‘life’ you won’t live
Burned my bridges beneath me, I’ve more than had my fill--so much, unspeakable, in the four chambers of my heart (in the torture chamber of my heart)
Laid out on that floor, those nights hanging by a thread, unsure whether it was desire or despair that kept me drawing breath, when all my dreams came down to nothing, left me just another piece of meat, for you I carried my life on in my teeth--through betrayed years, to bloody tears, and pits where you can only crawl
Now ‘Grendel’s had an accident’--so may you all
and in dust the end of all my fears, nothing and no one can reach me in here--holy of holies, the altar of flies,
and I will sleep in your embrace tonight
She draws me close and shuts my eyes, regrets and secrets, don’t say a word
(On rustling wings of leper skin) slides a finger in every nerve
[We burned down the candles of our youth, bathed our lives in heart and soil
Poured out our corroded insides, while we could, body and--
Sold for blood money, blood money, that bought our ghettos and gods,
The black skies hanging over the highways--so this is how it comes to a close:]
And she’s wringing out the memories from my heart, with all the tenderness of the dispossessed
Now I’m counting down the seconds in fear and bitterness, praying to cease to exist
Thy silent hands, they come for me
Thy cold caresses comfort me
Thy icy blood, it runs through me
and I will sleep
in your embrace
forever
I’m never coming down again
(Into nothingness I’ll never know)